“Have you ever killed anyone?”  has got to be one of the dumbest questions ever asked by a civilian.  It’s not malicious.  It’s ignorance....

Caffeine is a drug and I’m addicted. Am I also addicted to violence?“I felt like I couldn’t stop even though I knew I was mad about nothing.”...

I felt like my heart had been ripped out of my chest like the guy in Indiana Jones & The Temple of Doom....

I was excited about the prospect of deploying again.  The unit was spinning up as I checked in.  It was long nights, exhausting days; 6, sometimes seven days a week, working 18 or more hours...

We separated for about 6 months.  My wife and children went out to Colorado to live with friends, while I packed up my meager possessions I had left and PCS’d (Permanent Change of Station) to...

"Glad we cleared this up.  Don’t worry, I won’t ever be back, so I won’t waste anymore of your time, and you won’t waste any of mine.”  To which I got up, walked out of...

...two therapists later, with no good answers, and a severe lack of trust in the mental health profession as a whole.  So how did I get here? I’m here, now what?...

Progress is not linear despite our best efforts....

Is life only suffering, spent climbing the hill of adversity, never to overcome? ...

For many years I felt God had left me, wasn’t on my side, or just wasn’t there at all. The drinking filled the void or so I told myself as I masked the pain, confusion,...